He loves me. He loves me not. He loves me. He loves me not.
Why haven't you vindicated me? You are the God of my strength. Why are you in despair, my soul? I shall again praise Him. Why do I mourn? Send your light.
I think I'm glad that David was honest enough with us to show both his doubts and his faith. He knew the answers. He knew he needed God to send His light and truth to guide him. He knew he would again praise God, but he was still in despair - and knew he shouldn't be.
If the "man after God's own heart" - as David was called - had to wrestle with doubt then I don't feel so bad about those times when I am unsure of what God is saying (or when it doesn't seem like He is saying anything at all, but I NEED Him to saying something - anything!
It's hard to wait. It's hard to trust. It's easy to wallow in self-pity and for our souls to be in despair.
David knew the answer and he reminded himself what the answer was.
bring me to Your holy hill And to Your dwelling places. 4 Then I will go to the altar of God, upon the lyre I shall praise You) He knew God was his exceeding joy. He knew to hope in God.
So it's OK, I suppose, to be in one of those "He loves me, He loves me not" times of life as long as you remind yourself of the things that David knew. Then let God lift your countenance - you can't do it on your own.